Trust

Anyone remember this post:  Providence?  Sometimes in life it is crystal clear where God is working.  Most times, it seems to me, this is most clear in hindsight.  The job I took way back then has been a wonderful blessing to me and our family.  These past three and a half years has been great and I have had the best bosses and coworkers.

Two weeks ago, I got an email from a client wondering if I was interested in a job with him.  At first, I hardly even blinked.  Then, after thinking about it for a day or so, I asked about specifics -- how many hours, $$, etc., and I was mildly interested.  The ONE thing about my job with VH that I don't love is that we travel all the time -- not overnight, but some days I'm in the car for 3 hours.  We don't even have an office.  While not a huge deal, it does get old and I'm relatively unavailable once I'm at a client (we often carpool, thus it's hard to leave mid-day for a sick kid, for example). This new place solves this issue:  it's a 15 minute drive from home and it's the same place every time.  And the $$ and hours offered are almost exactly even.  And the people are nice too (I've worked on their audit for 3 years).

I'll admit to being a total girl about this decision.  I have been a crying wreck.  I've felt sick to my stomach.  I've lost sleep.  I'm glad to have made a decision (even if part of me wants to pull a Jason Mesnick and change my mind).  To quote my "Providence" post, I am eager to look back on these next few weeks of transition with the same peace and understanding about God's magnificent plan, but it's not easy.  Worry (and self-doubt and second-guessing) comes easy.  Trusting God's perfect plan is hard.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6